It's been such a long time since I felt this way. Years, I think. So allow me to be giddy until the feeling subsides. It doesn't happen to me always. By the time you finish reading this particular entry, you'd probably be laughing as you try to imagine how I would look like if I did share this story face to face. Also, as much as I would like to share this to the whole world, I'd rather share it with selected people as my officemates can access my blog in Multiply and to their knowledge, there's nobody in SEAIR that makes me feel like a high school girl with a crush that just won't go away.
Since we've moved to our new office, I've been noticing this particular guy. His name is Van. He's the creative manager of our company and our department works closely with them as they are in charge of putting up the airlines' and magazine's websites. I already knew of Van but I've never really noticed him. Until now.
InFlight's office is parallel to Helicon Technology. That's where Van really works. But since some of the people working in Helicon are stationed at our office, Van comes by from time to time to check up on things. So it's not impossible to not see him within the day. And almost always when Van drops by our office, he comes by to our space. He would walk up to my boss, Ms. Mons or simply say "hi" to me. That's how he is. I guess it was then that I started to notice him, really. When I got to see him everyday.
He's not really the obviously handsome guy, I think. He's not like the Brad Pitt or George Clooney type. But he has that appeal. He has white complexion, high bridged nose, and a really cute smile. He's part Spanish, by the way...which somehow, makes it rather easy for me to relate to him since we both speak Spanish from time to time. Sometimes, people would hear us talk and I could only imagine what they must be thinking when they hear us talk. Hehehe.
Surprisingly, it was easy to befriend him. He's a very approachable guy. He's the type who greets you whenever you pass by the hallway. He always has a smile on his face. He's like a kid at heart. I guess that's partly why I started to have a crush on him. Because he's genuinely a fun person to be around.
At times, I would feel giddy. Yeah, this is so high school-ish but it's true. He's got that effect on me that makes me smile whenever he's around. Just like yesterday. I was in my workspace, listening to my MP3 and concentrating on the tasks that need to be accomplished. I didn't realize he was in our office until I stood up to go to the comfort room. When I passed by him, he said, "Marge, ang cute mo naman sa suot mo." I didn't know what else to say but. "Thanks." The moment I got to the ladies' room, I think my smile was from ear to ear. Who wouldn't be like that? He noticed how I looked and got a compliment. While I'm still not very good at taking in compliments from other people, I've learned to say my gratitude when receiving them.
The thing is, I know it's only a crush. And that's all it will ever be. Not that I'm being cynical about it or anything but, you know, you just have that feeling that it's just like that. And I completely accept it. But let's not get ahead of ourselves. I just want to relish these moments. Moments that I can act like I'm the happiest girl in the planet. Hahaha!
So there! I've shared my story.