Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Even in dreams, I sing...

Just this week, I've been waking up at 5am. Not that I set my alarm on that time, I just do. And I've noticed that I'm more inclined to blog at this time. I guess it's because I haven't started anything yet, so I could think more.

But here's the real score. I had a rather weird dream. I always say weird when the dream involves me and a guy. Hahahaha! I don't know why, it's just a little strange for me to have those kinds of dreams. Oh the dreams when I've eaten something delicious for dinner. Hehehe...

I was in a restaurant with a group of friends. We were having dinner, having lots of laugh, enjoying the band on the stage performing. Out of nowhere, the band called my name to come up on stage and sing with them. After much prodding from my friends, I got up and felt this sort of adrenaline rush inside. I ended up choosing the song "I'd Still Say Yes" by The Braxtons (This is probably because I've been listening to this song for the past couple of days now). I could hear my friends cheering for me (This scene is oh-so-familiar).

After I sang, I went back to my friends and laughed at the whole thing. And then I hear one of the guys from the band calling my other friend to sing with them. To all our surprise. He got up, went to the band and said, "Mags, for you." The song: "Single" by Anoop Desai (This is one of the most current songs I've been listening to in my iPhone for the past two weeks). And I just loved the way he sang the song. It truly melted my heart.

And after he sang...

I woke up. Damn, I don't know what happened next. Hehehe...

Well, maybe next time. But right now, I need to get ready for breakfast.


Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Random Thoughts of a Single Girl.

Lately, I've been talking to my cousin Ate Kriselle about weddings. Not only because my brother is getting married in January but also because she and her long time boyfriend will be tying the knot by late next year as well. And though I love discussing with her about receptions and themes and souvenirs and all the wedding stuff, I guess it could not be helped that my status as a single girl would come into place.

She asked me the funniest question last Sunday: "May boyfriend ka na kaya pag dating ng kasal ko?" I would have loved to have said yes to that question but the fact remains that I don't know and frankly speaking, I don't really care.

I don't care in the sense that I don't want to think about it every now and then. If and when I get a boyfriend, then that would be great. If not yet at this time, then it's fine.

So I've never had a boyfriend. Big deal. I'm not the only one who's like that. As a matter of fact, there are a lot of other people who are even older than I am who are still single. So there isn't any insecurity there, knowing that I am not the last single girl in this world.

Of course, people would then point out that I am partly at fault since I don't go out on dates. Hey, if I could, don't you think I would? Truth is, I'm not like the some people I know who would go out on a Friday night, have a drink with friends and then get asked out by a guy they barely know. More than that, I'm not the type of girl who would ask a guy out. That is just one big NO to me. Even if people say that's the "in" thing nowadays, to me, that is just not going to happen.

When it comes to finding a relationship, I believe in time taking its course. I'm not in a rush. I'm enjoying being single. The feeling that I only have to answer to my parents whenever I have to go elsewhere for work. The feeling of serenity that I don't have a "lover's spat" going on. I guess you could say, I still have much to enjoy as a single girl.

But yes, at times, I would think about "the boyfriend." I would like to take care of someone, I would love to cook for him, go shopping with him, go on dates with him, all that stuff. How could I not think about him if I'm being surrounded by people who talk about their better halves? I would love to be in a relationship, yes. In due time. In God's time.

I acknowledge that there are definitely ups and downs of being a single girl. But I wouldn't let the down side of it make me depressed or let the up side of it get to my head. Right now, I'm enjoying what I'm doing -- work. And somewhere along the way, I know that there's one person who would sweep me off my feet. But for now...

I'd like to enjoy my life... not sharing it with someone. I'd like to enjoy my being single.

Do you know that saying?

"Being single isn't bad. What is bad is giving up hope on finding that someone special."

Till then, dear readers.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Morning Blogging.

It's a couple of minutes before 5am and even though I've got a lot of things in mind, I'm just so glad that I'm able to blog. Many times, I've wanted to blog about certain things only to stop logging in because I've got tons of work to do.

I've always appreciated waking up very early. It allows me to think clearly. I get that sense of peace I'm supposed to have. Not that I'm bothered or anything. But it's good to have that time of day where you can just breathe a little easier.

So what do I have to blog about? Oh! I think it was only yesterday I actually realized I may have a future in wedding planning. Hahaha!

You see, my oldest brother is getting married and I've basically been assigned to take care of the details. Not that we don't have a wedding coordinator, we do. But since my brother and his fiancé are both in the States, I'm doing a lot of the nitty gritty stuff -- which I don't mind. I love doing it. We've already got the date, the motif, and the church down. Soon enough, we'll get the wedding reception finalized.

As odd as it may seem, it's kind of a natural thing for me to do, the whole wedding planning. I know what to do, where to call, what looks good, what's more practical. It wasn't until yesterday when my cousin told me, "pwede mo maging sideline 'yan." And it actually made sense. Given my connections, I could make it a sideline. So maybe I should build up my portfolio on this. Hehehehe. Hmm... Now that's something to think about.

I should probably prepare. What to wear today, my stuff for work. Now it's coming to mind the things to do. Haha!